What am I feeling right now? I guess it’s just a sense of pending doom and resignation. I’m looking for validation for a sense of, this just came to me, me too. That I’m not alone in my concerns. Concerns a bout what? That Trump and Trumpism is taking over our beautiful and beloved country. God bless America, land that I love, stand beside her and guide her, through the night with the light from above. From the mountains to the prairies to the oceans white with foam, God bless America, my home sweet home, God bless America my home sweet home.

Trump has moved in and capitalized on our divisions our fears and our prejudice. He’s telling his followers that he will only be a dictator for one day… close down our boarders and drill baby drill. Will he and his followers kill the electric car? Will they take away social security? The monthly income but almost worse, our actual sense of social security. There are shootings every week. It barely makes the news. Facts have been buried in misinformation and outright lies. The truth tellers are jeered while the biggest liar of all time is cheered. Things are upside down and backwards and the meaning of words have been redefined. I love America. I love Democracy. I love Freedom. I love Jesus and love his teachings. I try to follow in his path and in his light I love all this and more about America but I don’t love seeing our capital attacked or seeing our representatives attacked and threatened and yet he is calling these people patriots. My patriotism has been much more quiet and peaceful. I obey the law. If I break the law, a speeding ticket, I pay it. I vote. I trust the election. I pay my taxes. I am so far from perfect but I know it and I try to do better. I am humble. I am proud but I am humble. I am white. I am middle class. I have money. I do not have fame, thank God! I have the love of my life, a beautiful family and a few good friends. All I want is to live it out in peace. To have validation here and there. To know I’m not alone. Or, sometimes, to know I am alone but that’s ok.

The Future of Fusion

 Nuclear fusion is the fuel of the future… and always will be.

The funniest line my friend John ever said.

Well I just invested in the fuel of the future and I hope it’s closer now than ever = never. It is a green energy in that it does not create carbon dioxide and therefore has great potential to produce abundant amounts of energy, which our modern lifestyle demands, at reduced harm to the environment, which many of us want. Its is Amazing how science deniers have gained such a foothold in our society… but that’s a different post.. I have what I consider ideological investments in Solar and Wind alternative energy sources and we now have an electric car. I realize that nothing is perfect and there are tradeoffs when talking about energy vs the environment. I, however, will not invest in the fossil fuel industry because I believe that it is more harmful, more primitive and should go the way of the dinosaurs from which it came. I do, however, believe in capitalism and want to make money so I invested in nuclear via the ETF URN I only bought 100 shares at 50 so 5000 bucks. So this way I’m in the game but not putting much at risk. We did very well with First Solar very quickly so I sold some shares, as I did with other winners, APPL and MSFT with my logic being to cover the what ifs… we’ve made a lot of money but what if the market crashes or what if anti trust busters attack my biggest holdings, so I decided to get some cash which is currently making real money with 4.36 interest rate, 1215.43 this month, so this alleviates my biggest fear that somehow we go broke. So now I feel like we’ve covered the energy bases and if my sleeper investments, IDRV, FAN,TAN. and RIVN start to build I can always buy more but if they collapse we don’t go broke. Ironically Tess and I have not spent any of this investment money on real things so it’s all just symbols, something I debate in my mind. I’m test driving nice cars and Tess has said emphatically NO! So I guess it all goes to Lauren and our next generation which is fine. Anyway all of this is to say, we want to live well, if not extravagantly and we want our planet to Not go up in smoke, politically, economically or environmentally and in the end we’re the generation who believed that All you need is Love! ❤️